The exciting, terrifying, nerve wracking realization that you know EXACTLY what you want.
The questions I've asking myself as a woman lately...
In a world where women are primarily taught to "be nice," "be polite," "be kind," or "be cute, desirable, pretty, sexy etc." this essentially boils down to "be diluted."
It means you can be bold and interesting, but only if it doesn't ruffle anyone's feathers and can fit into these perfectly portioned boxes.
It means you can't be shrewd or discerning because that might be rude or offensive.
And so we're left bumbling around, having learned to be so confused about what we want, shameful when we have desires or needs, loyal to our socially accepted "nice girl" status, and being massively disappointed by our lot in life.
Highly unsatisfied with our experienced womanhood. This is it?
Some of us are shutting off the juicy flow of the feminine and becoming hyper independent, emotionally cold, Bo$$ bishes. Some of us are leaving the female gender behind altogether in search of new ways of expression & social acceptance, and some of us are just continuing to swirl around in the murky, muddy, nice-pretty-woman-world wondering how she got here, and secretly ashamed that she should desire something more.
Whatever avenue you've found yourself down it's a complicated stigma filled box that needs unpacking…
Because what if, you just really REALLY knew what you wanted? What if the only thing that needs to change is the shame cloaked second guessing of our inner knowing? What if knowing EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT actually wasn't that far away? What if the discomfort you're feeling is not coming from being confused or unsure of the next step, but actually coming from being SO DAMN CERTAIN in a world that has not trained women to be this way?
What if?
What if I could be both, SO DAMN CERTAIN, and at the same time, SO SENSUAL & SOFT in my feminine flow? What then?
These are the questions I have been asking myself. The discovery, has been surprising, delightful, and causing me to pause on the lip of a powerful edge. An edge that begins from the place of just letting myself know that I KNOW and choosing to soften into THAT.